so, will you take me out for a while ?

Last Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, I had three dreams consecutively.

The first one wasn't that the worst. It was a nightmare. I was at a party, possibly my wedding reception, and it was at the old house off of 13th. No one there wanted anything to do with me. Not Greg, not Big Dan, and definitely not Eric. Also in the dream I was in college but too poor to go to college, and I was stealing people's notes for Korean class out of the trash.

The second dream, I don't really remember too much of. I don't exactly remember where it was, but I remember being attacked and raped. Well it seems scary actually didn't feel that way. The main part I will remember wasn't the act itself, but it was running and screaming at the top of my lungs for so many people around me did.

The next one was even less of a dream as more of a feeling like the second one. Everything is good. I think I may have been even getting ready for the wedding again. Or, it had just happened. I remember the bouquet, I remember everything deep very perfect, and I remember being just so happy

dreamt that i was getting ready on the day of the wedding. A few things there member of Amazing air horn Ian and perfect time before I left, riding with Catherine on the big bridge thing with the water in trees, me dropping her off and a situation that might be hard for her to get back, and me for getting all my makeup at home and having to drive back home before getting ready for the wedding

, remember putting on my unlucky shirt. Or lucky shirt. The one that isn't the real duplicate of the lucky shirt.. anything anyway the only thing I remember is walking outside and where my little son's has been dug there's a deep hole. Almost like a well. But it's not that deep off of there is water in it even though it's just the whole. Anyway cubby he was inside the hole.

Dreamt he was trying to get back with me. I dont know why (looks? voice? smarts?) but i was so into him again.
I was in bed with him at our house. We haven't had sex yet though. And he and I both alluded to wanting to before Eric's Got Back, he was at work. But I told him I didn't think there be enough time before he got back. I realized that I absolutely could not get caught. Then, I really realized that I just couldn't to do this. I told him this time, instead of you need to leave before Eric gets here, I said you needed to just leave

Can't remember almost any of it now. I remember the guy. It was I think I happy dream or a happy part of the dream. Anyway at the part I remember I felt happy, and it was pretty cool. The only part I remember is sleeping with a guy. And right now, his identity escapes me. It wasn't Durgin, and I'm pretty sure that it wasn't Nick K. But it felt like it could have been him? Basically it was an affair feeling fling. Felt exciting, and it felt like he was excited. I'm pretty sure it wasn't Nick K because in the dream he was buffer than any guy I've ever been with.

I was getting ready for I think Liz and Chris's wedding. I was skinnier and was going to wear leggings style pants to the wedding. For some reason we are staying at someone else's house, it feels like the house was on my mom's Street are on my mom's old Street. They have like a holding area that would have a step or two down from the front of the house but I may have also in the bedroom area? Anyway, I walked down there and saw Eric on top of a girl. He didn't seem embarrassed, he smiled and seems excited. This response was basically like, what, you can sleep with other people if you want to. I didn't want to, I couldn't really even want to talk to him, or see him anymore. If I didn't want to say goodbye. I don't know if it was before or after, I think it was after, while I was getting ready for the wedding I found a hamster? But it wasn't like a real animal hamster... It seems like a thick cookie cutter shape before it has been baked into a cookie. Don't really know where it came from, just wanted to love it and take care of it. Continue getting ready for the wedding, and I realize that leggings for stupid to wear to wedding. Also, I guess we were staying in other people's houses while they were gone hence the street being part of the setting. The people who lived in the house we either were at or were already at came back. I guess we have been just staying at people's houses on the street while they weren't there. One of the guys seemed like the guy on the street that I really really hate, but I guess he was nice or liked me in the dream. There was a mother and son and I think they were okay too. When they caught came back they seem to be unaware of the fact that we were staying there, so I kind of threw it in to remind them or see how they reacted. Based on the reaction they didn't know or didn't care because there was a boy on the street with a bicycle cause trouble for them somehow. So they seemed to be focused on that. I'm not 100% positive but I kind of remember thinking as long as he leaves the hamster alone I don't care what happens. Also had a kind of sad feeling about going to the wedding since Eric and I were definitely not going to be staying together.

Wish I could remember more but at this point i cant. most of the dream had a dark and blue hue. Durgin was there and probably others, laura, my mum, eric, lallah, charles. Feel like it started in evening. i got to a place, maybe like disney, and durgin was there. i remember being outside in a rock or tree cul de sac, this one was huge, and this imagery has existed in my dreams before. he was nice to me which immediately sparked old feelings of liking him so much, but as always, I was unsure about his reciprocation. but being around him for those few moments overwhelmed me with that happiness i havent felt since him. And then it seem to strip itself away. Things became mildly weird to strikingly I'm uncomforting to pretty much terrible. First off, Charles was big. Still a year-and-a-half old but the size of maybe a nine-year-old. There were a bunch of other weird things that happen, but one of the weirdest ones was driving my car to a place that he might have been at and in the dream. It was like a natural obstacle course I was driving over cliffs, through water, all this kind of stuff scraping destroying my car to make it there. Reminds me of stuff I used to do and the way I used to drive my cars.

There was another hurricane and I guess I had to evacuate or something, so I went to school. I was back in high school in this dream. The people at school were like vague acquaintences, people like Evan and Eli, but I had a ton of fun with them. There were some girls there but I didn't know either and they were fun too. Maybe Leslie Maybe Alyssa, don't know for sure. We were all chilling and smoking weed I guess for some reason to me got stuck staying there after the hurricane and there was no power in the building. It was still bright during the day because of all the windows but I remember there was no power. Anyway, we were smoking weed, when someone who I feel like wasn't a teacher but maybe more like an author, came to visit. There were people with her that I knew or had met or was going to meet....  after the storm is over and even though there was no power at the school, more people kept coming. There were more more people there showing up. Anyway this lady came and I guess I accidentally got caught smoking cigarettes inside accidentally as well. I can't remember if it was her or someone else but we were reprimanded for smoking weed. They said that just because the power was off didn't mean the camera was on. In hindsight it seems like one of those idle threats that the schools give out to the entire students. But, as most like real life, I didn't believe them and I was terrified that we were all going to get in trouble for smoking weed. I think it was either during or after that when Eric came and eddie too, I think Eric pulled my shirt up, and Eddie grabbed my chest.

Can't remember any others at the moment but I do remember one. It was Anna's birthday and we were going to Wiggins Pass. It had a weird theme park Bus Loop feel and it was night time. I was left to park the bus, it was gigantic, maybe as wide as three or four cars. And I had the feeling that everyone made me park the bus because they didn't want me to be there or to humiliate me or something. I can't remember any of the other dreams that I had when we had no power but I will keep thinking.

I remember being with Lallah and trying to get to moms house through the yard. Mom's house looks really similar to her neighbors so first we almost went into the wrong house because we didn't know which one was hers. In this dream Taylor's play friend was more similar to Kayla's boyfriend. He was like that preppy pussy kind of gangster. There was a really big bathroom. I guess this was her boyfriend's.  She found a flash drive in the bathroom and I guess she and I both assumed, or I assumed with her, that this meant that her boyfriend masturbated in the bathroom. The flash drive looked like a little guy like the one we got at Richie's wedding with arms and legs. Taylor said I still want to lose weight anywayTaylor said I still want to lose weight anyway or something along those lines. We proceeded to treat the little flash drive as if it was a voodoo doll and did some pretty or homoerotic things to it. There was a guy with us I can't remember if it was Eric or boyfriend, because I do feel like it was there but I don't think it was then. Anyway the guy that was with us at the it felt really weird and gay to do that to the flash drive.